Slipknot frontman Corey Taylor recently was a guest on Viceland’s The Therapist where he opened up about his experiences with a suicide attempt, sexual assault and addiction. You can watch the episode below.

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Here’s what he had to say (as transcribed by Rock Feed):

“I took a bunch of pills at my grandmother’s house and just basically laid on the floor. My ex-girlfriend’s mom stopped and my grandmother’s house outta nowhere to check on me, to see how I was — found me. An hour later I was drinking ipecac and throwing up into a bucket.”

“The girlfriend whose mother found me had just broken up with me. There was just something about her that I really connected with but when that went away, a lot of me went with it. I felt so empty that I had a hard time feeling anything other than grave depression. It was the one time I really was just like I can’t handle this.”